Trust

Trust. My word of the year. What does this mean to me? I feel tired of those telling me what they think I need to hear. How can one know, how can one see, how can one feel what is inside of ME? All are a mirror, pointing at me. The irritability, fear, discomfort - the mirror is pointing at me. It will highlight my pain, it will highlight worry, my mind jumps in to offer 1 of 100 stories. They are the same, they thrive off patterns and past experiences. 1 of 100 YouTubes, meditations, books, yoga galore - these are temporary fixes. The answer is within me — inside, not so deep. Stillness is the answer my mind refuses to seek. My mind and my body, they are working to become something new. Trying to catch up to speed and very confused by this new view. A new way of living, developing over many years. One where I don’t blame others for all of my fears. An internal job, discernment when to speak. Stillness and words have power together, the key is continuing to seek. I learn how to trust you by trusting me. Trusting in the Universe, the home inside of me. Turning on the lights, making space for this new view. I don’t have the answers, I don’t know where I am going, I see the light and I follow. Releasing the need to know, to figure out. Trust is how I get to tomorrow.