Ruin

Thinking I can ruin something. Taking all the blame. Time heals everything is an excuse to numb the pain. Time allows for space and space allows for time. Sometimes being myself feels like a true crime. Wanting to run and wanting to hide. Hiding from my truth. There is no right, there is no wrong, all lessons, learning, guiding me to you. You who helps carry me, to remind me of my strengths and wounds. Gently guiding me back to my body even when it feels black and blue. I don’t want to beat myself up, I really want to be free. To heal you must walk through the pain, my child, to heal you re-feel and set yourself free.